Alone

You would think that I would be use to this by now... Always feeling alone...
I don't think I will ever be use to it... even when I am with someone my soul still feels alone
what the fuck ever happened to passion... romance... desire? I mean come on guys...

The hard part of life is knowing you have a mate that is made just for you... and not being able to see them or be with them... It makes you just want to crawl in your crypt and sleep the rest of this life away.... So that maybe in the next life... you can feel what you never did in this one....

Why me

It seems like as I get older and learn more... the more things I see wrong with human kind... like why do they stop learning... why do they not see pain in others eyes... why must it be to their liking... the list goes on... how I wish my mate was with me... instead... I am not happy and feel more like a person sitting in a cage... for show.. there is no intimacy in this relationship... not even really a companion...

How many more years will this go on.... better yet how many lifetimes must I feel alone in a world I clearly do not belong...